Hello!

Finally I have the time to blog because I have submitted my last assignment as Year 1 university student on last thurs! Feel so relax even though I have 2 more upcoming exams in 1 week time but I'm already in holiday mood! ^ ^ Everything should just take its course naturally.

On 17th Feb, I had a short gathering at Sembawang Teo Heng KTV with Peiqi, Siying and Chiamiang. It was a mini farewell party for Siying because she is going Korea for attachment soon which is her dream place!

I bought a tulip and a handwritten card for her :)))

On 18th Feb, I went to Tanglin Trust Sch again for 3 hours coaching session with Liu Chang!


On 21st Feb, I went to meet up with my Sec sch dance friends! We had dinner at Ajisen. Long talk about our trip to Australia to visit Linyan during the July holidays, how we celebrated our valentines day etc!


On 22nd Feb, Chuqing and I went to Ms Clarity Buffet. I bought 2 deal coupons and I intended to go with Baby in the first place but it was difficult to get a booking from the restaurant because they don't reply on time. Worse it their food quality sucks. Seriously, it's the worst restaurant buffet that I have ever eaten. Even though I paid half price for each person using that coupon (which is $25 dollars, originally $50. WTH right!), I still feel that it's a waste of money. We ordered soup in the first place. It was smelly. Then the fried ice-cream was such a failure. The ice-cream had already melted inside. It was an ala-carte buffet. So we ordered fried cheese sticks and they gave us 5 of that with the size of one original banana for each. They wanted to stuff us full right!!!??? So ridiculous. After eating for around 15 minutes, we could not take it any longer and cancel all our remaining orders. Then we went to Vivo to shop for the whole day! Bought a lot of stuffs from Daiso! Chuqing can really shop. After wandering the whole of Daiso by myself, she would be still in that same area choosing her stuffs after half an hour. HAHA!

On 24th Feb, we had a gathering with Eugene Coach at Sakura buffet, Dhoby Ghaut. A nice catch up with our batch of SP wushu peeps and Clement.


25th Feb
Had a short gathering with the dance people that I have known through Golden Age Talentime and in the end all of them came late and I had to eat with Maqrius and Dave first at Bugis NYNY. The spaghetti was nice. Next time must go and dine there again. 

26th to 1st March Hong Kong + Macau Trip

Reached our destination! HK Airport! It was when we started to regret not bringing more shirts with us. 1st: On our way back to Rambler Garden Hotel! 2nd: On airport shuttle bus.


The world's largest suspending bridge


My brother and my hotel room! The 'sea view' outside. 


Out for a walk! Took taxi out to Tsing Yi MTR then we took public transport from there.


MTR station!


We wanted to go to The Peak in the first place but the queue was too long. A lot of maids were gathering outside The Central. Very happening sia! So we went to Mongkok Street and 女人街 Ladies' Market on our first night.




Their street food were really nice!!! Eating a bowl of hot Fishball noodles, fried sotong, buns in this cold weather of 12 degree celsius over there was super shiok! Tired after whole night of walking!


Early next morning we reached Ocean Park at 10am!!! FREEEEEEEEZING COLDDDDD!!! BRRRRRRR! 10 degree celsius WTH! I could not walk properly because my legs were tremblingggg!


Their underwater world. More magnificent than Singapore's Underwater World!




First time saw panda! CUTEEE!




Acrobats' Performance! Dad writing well wishes for our family. 


In cable car!


We had lunch at the one of the restaurants at the mountain of Ocean Park. Seeing others' servings, we decided to buy 2 servings and shared among the 4 of us. 1st: Can you spot Brother and me on this roller coaster ride? Can only see my brother's hand. 2nd: Carnival. 3rd: The one and only roller coaster that we took. We wanted to sit the fastest roller coaster but the weather was really too unbearably cold.


Brother was expressionless. Too coldddd.


Sealions' performance. ROARRR!


After lots of laughter at ocean park with my family, we went to The Peak at night!
SO MANY PEOPLE!


Madame Tussauds Wax Museum! 










It was drizzling outside when we wanted to go home. However there was a uber long queue waiting OUTSIDE for the tram. The wind was blowing strong and we had to tolerate the wind, drizzle and temperature of 8 degree celsius for half an hour!!! Why is the customer service there so lousy? Don't they realise that there is this problem right from the start when they started their operation? I almost fainted over there and luckily my dad was holding onto me. Children and elderly were waiting inside while their parents were queueing outside. Despite the harsh weather, my family were laughing and making jokes while we were snuggling to one another in the queue. Unforgettable moments. <3


We went on a city tour on the following day! The tour guide was damn hilarious! 

The so-called Haw Par Villa in HK at Repulse Bay.




Then we went for a boat ride!

The infamous Jumbo Floating Restaurant that is always seen in HK's movies. The tour guide said that the food is not nice. We started our boat ride from a Yacht club in HK where few of the richest people in HK place their jet boats over there. There's Jackie Chan's, Li Ka Shing etc. The membership alone already cost $4 million HKD, not to mention their maintenance fees and rental fees. $$$$$$$. Ka-chings!


2nd: These are the living residents' homes on boats because they have no passports when the British government returned HK back to China. So they can only live on the boats for the rest of their life. Sad life. They are mostly elderly people.


Luckily we did not buy the entrance tickets to sky terrace at The Peak because it was foggy that night. So on our city tour's day, we went to the middle of The Peak and had a great view of HK's skyscrapers.

After the city tour, we went to The Avenue of Stars, 星光大道.

Although there is a lot of people during their peak hours, they are able to walk in an orderly manner and I have never witnessed of the people over there showing irritated faces when people accidentally bumped into one another unlike Singapore.








Brother watching the news on MTR. I like the concept of the quiet cabin in their MTR. Then I would not have to listen to babies' crying, loud phone talkings etc.


车公庙. The pinwheel temple. Spin the pinwheel, kachingsss!


Went back to Mongkok street for good food again! 2nd: Their KFC. And to our surprise, their Mcdonalds is not halal because their sausage muffin is called 猪柳堡.


A trip to HK disneyland but not going in because I heard a lot of people saying that it's not worth it.


Outside Disneyland.

Next day, our ferry trip to Macau!

1 hour ferry ride!



Interesting urinated area for dogs. Beautiful casinos. There are 39 casinos over there and many of them are in construction. So in the future, there can be more than 50 casinos at Macau.



We had our own van and tour guide to bring us around Macau!


Their unique parking lots. $1 macao dollar for whole day parking!!! so cheappp!


SUPER NICE DUCK RICE!!!! I cannot forget the taste of it. 陈光记饭店.


I love their Portugese's buildings. Romantic.






Romantic Place!


One of the oldest cathedral over there. I love the feel when I was inside. very surreal.


The remaining of a church when a fire broke out in the past.


Real cannons.



More casinos!

The largest casino in the world is not at Las Vegas. It's at Macau! The funny thing was brother and I did not know that we were already in casino because it looks like a huge arcade area to us. Age restriction above 18 years old. But I was always held back by security guards to check my passport. When I was inside the casino, a lot of people were like looking at me, thinking that I'm underage.


2nd: The whole of first floor is the world's largest casino!


Night scene of Venetian Hotel.


I like this Galaxy Hotel more!




Played many rounds on the wheel thingy in casino with brother. Like playing arcade games. HAHA! Although we lost, it was still a brand new experience for brother and me.


Next day, home sweet home! :)

I think we went to many places at HK because we kept walking non-stop! Actually I bought 4 deal coupons to HK so I found this trip is very worth it! Lesson learnt is that never trust the weather forecast. No joke! We did not bring any winter wear jackets and I actually wore 5 tops, 3 socks, two pants in 2 of the days over there!

The residents in HK believe in Feng Shui, especially the very rich ones. Some of them even have different apartments in their villa to stay according to different seasons of the year and they can ask a lawyer to sue the construction company if there is another building that is constructing near their house which will affect their feng shui. 0_0

On 8th March, I had this NIE photoshoot in school. And there was a makeup artist who helped me with my makeup and my hairstyle. She kept spraying hair spray onto my hair and I felt that I looked rather nerdy.

Had an interesting chat with an American Lecturer and two other new friends that I have made during the photoshoot. We had to keep on talking and be normal while the photographers were busy clicking away with the cameras. Just a few different shots and we actually took 3 hours to finish it!

On 10th and 11th March, I had to go back to school on weekends for the two days Meranti with my GESL teammates. It's like a teambonding workshop for us to find out more about ourselves and others. I have truly learnt a lot from this workshop, through sharing of our life journey with others, talking about sensitive issues in Singapore, interacting with an experienced school teachers about our doubts and fears, telling how we feel about one another. I did a shocking thing which I have told Ain before I decided to say which was to reveal who my eyecandy was right from the start. Although it was already over, I would still like to thank him for letting me rediscover and understand more about myself. It's natural to have an eyecandy and I'm glad that I talked this out with baby so that I will not feel that guilty as well as to let us understand each other more in a way. I guess I can really tell baby whatever that is in my thoughts, the evil and the good ones. And this is what I really wish to achieve in a relationship, a transparent r/s. <3

My awesome SPARK Gesl teammates!

After my Meranti on 11th March, I went to Peiqi's NUS Guitar Ensemble Performance alone because my clique and baby weren't free. It was my first time going to a musical concert alone so I was actually prepared to indulge myself in the music better since I was alone with my own thoughts. I teared at some parts of some music pieces. The whole concert was like a music therapy session for me. :') GOOD JOB QI! <3


On 17th March,
Baby and I went to iFly at Sentosa. INDOOR SKYDIVING! Brand new experience for the both of us! We had two jumps. During my first jump, I was so nervous but I felt wonderful when my whole body was floating inside the vessel. I was smiling all the way that I didn't realize my saliva flow out of my mouth until baby told me. HAHA! Damn funny and smelly.

1st: Spot the mistake in the first photo! 3rd: His nervous expression! 无奈ing!
Then at night, baby and I went to meet up with his brother and cousins for KTV at buona vista teo heng. Then we headed to Harbour Front Sakae and Vivo Haagen Daaz ice-cream. His eldest cousin, Joey, treated us. She is really very generous and I feel very comfortable chatting with his paternal side of relatives. :)



On 21st March, it was Baby's POP. Even though I had tuition on that evening, I postponed it to another day because I told him there are some events in our life that we cannot miss them. <3

His mum, his brother and me were still thinking that the first three who came out could not be him. AND IT TURNED OUT TO BE HIM! OMG! My heart was racing when I saw him walk out. So stylo! I felt so proud of him and emotional at the same time!







On 30th March, I was on TV for the Golden Age Talentime! And my shoulders looked big on screen! >.<

Me on the extreme left!

On 31st March, Baby and I went to Rilakkuma's tea party at Bon Japan! I love their Japanese desserts and snacks! Japanese are really good in making nice food!

I won a pair of slippers(3rd prize) and a Rilakkuma cup!


I love this Rilakkuma and wish to have one for my 21st birthday but it's too ex. It's so comfortable! Like I'm hugging a real person and most importantly, it's bean bag tooo!!!! 

On 6th April, I met up with Zijing and Kaijun and we went for the Titanic Exhibition! I love the atmosphere of the whole exhibition. It's mind-opening experience to see all the artifacts and history of Titanic. The passenger card that I was holding onto it eventually was a survivor while Zijing wasn't and she shouted "I'm dead!" while scanning the list of survivors and the dead, attracting others' attention. LOL! We got to see how the grand staircase, first class, second class and third cabin looked like. Understand the history of Titanic more, the passion of those conservationists. Next up will be the Harry Potter exhibition which I can't wait for it too!


This morning I just went to pay respects to my late grandfather with my maternal side's relatives at Guang Ming Shan. I have finally seen my two youngest cousins! The younger of the two, Hui Min has really grown up. It's just a matter of a few years. Kids do grow up really fast!


Well, study break is here. Even though I have 2 more exam papers to go, I feel so much relaxed now! :)))

Hello,

I wanna make my loved ones feel happy. I don't mind splurging money on them when I have the mood to. I'm an independent girl and yet I'm also someone who is easily being taken advantage of.

I don't want this entry to sound like I'm an unreasonable and unfilial child.

I paid for my own driving fees, my own pet, my piano, piano lessons, laptop, handphone, wii, gynaecology visit, phone bills etc. (basically almost everything that I have now)

I stopped getting allowance from my parents since last year May.
I have started contributing monthly allowance of $300 to my mum.
I paid for my family's USS trip, Marche, Crystal Jade and many family dinners.

I worked and earned my money hard through tuitions, wushu workshops, performances, mascots etc.

Now I'm paying for my family's HK trip (Ocean Park, Hotels, Air Tickets) , their insurances, baggage top up. Topping onto that, just now I went to see my family doctor to get my MC because of my menses pain which caused me to unable to go school today, my dad asked me to withdraw $500.

I questioned him, "Why so much? I'm not spending so much over there."
He replied, " $100 for mummy, $100 for me. $100 for brother. $200 for yourself mah."
I repeated myself a lot of time that I'm not spending so much. Eventually I still withdrew that amount to him.
Then he said " I think during your 3rd year, you would have not much money left to spend. You are spending so much and saving so little."

This is not the first time he has said this to me. I tried explaining to him that I do not understand why I should pay so much/giving allowance monthly when I'm still a student but to no avail. He said it's 理所当然. I always felt like crying after that so I shut up.

Bad thoughts start to lurk in my mind. Like "How I wish I can spend away all my money now so that I have no money to pay for so many things." But it slapped upon me that all these are unfilial thoughts that I should abandon.

Yet, I have so many goals in my life that I want to reach. I want to go out with my boyfriend. I want to go overseas to visit my friends who are studying over there. I want to continue my piano lessons. I want to learn scuba diving and go on diving trips.

I should have around $10 500 in my bank (NIE's monthly salary since last year Aug) but what's left in my savings is only around 1/5 of it.

I understand it took a great amount of effort and money to raise me. That's why I wanna repay them but it seems that now I'm feeling more of being taken advantage of now compared to last time.

I don't want to quarrel with them so I just keep on contributing whenever they ask me to pay for dinners or what. At low times, I teared and even asked Baby to marry me.

I still love my family. What I'm writing here is the thoughts that are running through my mind. Contradicting feelings yet helpless. I can be firm to others but not to my loved ones.

What can I do?

Hello!

I'm sitting right beside Kee Mee in school library now. Finally I have time to update myself with the SO MANY THINGS that I have not written them down. Kee Mee asked me "Eh, you are still writing blog ah?" I replied " Yar, I wanna keep them so that in the future, I can still read them and remember what I had been doing in the past. So even if I'm very busy with my stuffs, I need to jot it down in my organizer that I have to write them out someday." ^ ^

Baby's POP



At Marina Bay Platform

Ballet Revolucion at Esplanade. We got the grand circle seats!






I enjoyed their performances especially after the interlude part. Dynamic and powerful! 

Horse Riding at Johor 

We have decided to name our future dog called Viva because we love a horse that is called Viva over there.


Although it's only half an hour of personal coaching, our back ached the following day! We learnt the basics of trodding. Baby said he want to go back there again someday in the future.

Baby's Family Dinner, celebrate his mummy's 51sy Birthday  Best buffet I ever had. At novena square.


Chinese New Year Performance at NTU Lee Kong Chian Theatre

Baby came to support me for this performance. This performance was different from my previous ones because we started with only a spotlight on Nicholas's three section cudgel and we pasted lightsticks on it. IT GLOWED!

Chinese New Year

Baby bought a pot of tulips for me and I took photos of its progress. 短暂但美丽.




My new piano. Piano lessons at Cephas Music School are expensive. $40 for 45 mins. Hence, I treasure the time while I'm at there and I practise while I'm stress with my school work!


Reunion Dinner at my house. This year's CNY is special for Baby and me because we officially went to each other's relatives house to do house visits. <3


At Kenneth's house!

Dinner with Dance's friends

I was super touched when Er Ning had actually bought a present for Yi Keng from England. :D

CLEAR Club's Chinese New Year Performance

First time performing a skit with XiaoQi. I was more nervous for the skit than our collaborated 'Martial Dance' performance. It was a breakthrough for both of us. We complemented chinese dance and martial arts together. 

CLS Alumni Brunch

Nashira, Xiang Hua and Me. Our sleepy faces. Ming Jun, Raymond Toh, Anna Yeow, Dorothy Ng were there too! Short meet up with them.

Chingay 2012

Thanks to my brother. We got free tickets worth $50 each for the 1st day of Chingay Performance. The performance was splendid. Felt like going again next time. 

HOOC Performance

These few guys shocked me with the flexing of their muscles. Wushu training is fun because of them! :)

Golden Age Talentime 2012 at Mediacorp



Travelling to Mediacorp is a pain in the ass. However, I have gained a lot of experience from this performance. Although some bad incidents happened during the performances, overall, we still had fun and enjoyed ourselves! The real broadcast of this final episode will be 30th March, Fri with replay on 31st March.

Family Trip To Malaysia

Woke up at 5am and we went to Malaysia with 10 of my relatives for temple visits! Interesting trip!

Late post! Desaru Trip with Yan and ZJ!

This hotel is the best that we had ever been to. <3 Wonderful getaway!

Valentines Day 2012

He got me a wallet from Paris and I love it a lot. Suits me! And I got him a PS 3 which totally surprised him! :P

Hello!

Peiqi came to my house for dinner and chit chat for 4 hours last thurs. Had a great catch up with her and she gave me really honest opinions about the problems that I've been facing during this period of time. <3


Dancefuzion Christmas Party at Alvin's house!

I had to leave early for wushu training in NTU. Thanks Herman for being my secret santa and your gift as well. :)


Baking cookies with baby on new year's eve at my house. Surprisingly delicious! Considering baking again with him for chinese new year!





Played wii after baking some baked potatoes as well while my house was crowded with around 10 guests, including my relatives and brother's friends who came to my house for new year countdown!


Next morning we baked banana cake! Not that bad too! Learnt some tips from fifth aunt!


Attended wedding dinner with my maternal side of relatives!


Cousins and brother!

4 more days to baby's pop!
I feel sian now though it's his last book in of his BMT training as I have spending many days with him recently due to Christmas and new year's holidays. Every sleepover at his house allows my state of mind to relax completely. His dad never fails to send me home as well after accompanying him to book in too. :D Feels so uber loved.

BS <3 BG

Hello!

On 5th Dec, I went for the scrapbooking workshop organized by Fsc club in NIE. I realized scrapbooking is a very expensive and tedious hobby. I took so much effort decorating the canvas base and ended up pasting stickers and photo to over it. There are many ways for scrapbooking. So many ways that you can create your own style with your creativity.


On 8th Dec, in the morning went for NTU wushu badminton outing at Clementi Sports Hall!

After that I went to my first piano class at Cephas Music School, Clementi.

At night went to have Korean BBQ buffet 2D1N with Jian Qing and Lin Yan!

I prefer the Novena one to Tanjong Pagar one.


On 10th Dec, I went to Alan's 21st birthday celebrations with my fellow fun-loving GESL mates! 1st: Releasing our helium balloons! 2nd: Me, Ain, Audrey. Xin Er, Hanee and Yi Xiu


:)
This function room gives me further inspiration on my 21st birthday party next year!~


Went to Marina Bay Sands for my first Musical Show, Wicked with my classmates! We were appalled to see the way how the others dressed to attend this show that we felt like we were not in place. Most of the guys were wearing black blazers over their top while ladies wore formal dresses.



Some funny shots of my dad and Baby!






Serene came to my house for one whole day to teach me how to knit. After having a try for knitting, I have concluded that this will be my first and last time knitting.

1st: I spent just 15 HOURS ALONE just to make this. It's freaking tedious. 2nd and 3rd: End product with Baby's favourite toy, Chou Mao.

It's my christmas present for him this year! <3 Had a lot of mistakes in between but I chose to persevere on. Not just the ball of yarn is expensive, the duration of knitting is longggggg too.

12th Dec, Group Endeavour Service Learning Project day at SP! We brought in kids from 6 to 14 years old to engage in activities organized by our GESL Spark Team and also Daiko, Wing Chun, Silat and Wushu performances by SP cca clubs.
Everything was running smoothly for the whole day ^ ^. Thanks to Mr Terence Ho, Mr David Lee and Joel's help to book the place and approve the submission of CCA points for the SP volunteers. Thanks to GESL teammates for contacting related personnels, setting up the place and preparing all the materials needed for this day, making this project a successful one! Thanks to SP clubs who volunteered to perform for us! :)






1st: Group photo with SP volunteers from WingChun and Wushu club! 2nd: OUR GESL GROUP! 

On 13rd Dec, I went for caroling and mascot at 112 Katong Mall! Sang some christmas songs which I had forgotten some parts of the lyrics on stage because I only got to memorize them when I was one hour before my caroling performance. >.<

Green Elf and Pink Fairy!


Makeup was done by myself and I helped Charrisa, Gwen and Alex to makeup too. LOL!

On 19th Dec, I went to NUS for wushu exchange training. Met some familiar faces!

Too long never had formal training. Their physical training made my body ache for a couple of following days. :(

On 21st Dec morning, went to Republic Poly for wushu exchange training.

Like their training ground! :) I have learnt some basics of nine section whip from Han Wei and another RP guy. Awesome!

After hours and days of dance practices, we finally showcased our item at Orchard Taka on 23rd Dec!







1st: Initially I liked my makeup then they said my eyes and blusher were not strong enough. So this is the outcome after touching up. Ewwww. I dislike it.

Off to Linyan's house around 10pm to celebrate her 22nd birthday!



<3

On Xmas eve, Baby and I went to Cynthia's house for BBQ party!

Cathy! One of the monkey performer that we taught for Tanglin Trust School Performance!


The house was an eyeopener experience for us!


Surprise from Baby!!!


Watched Voyage De La Vie with Baby! Both of us felt that the show was not as good as we had expected though. Went to treat my parents and my brother to Marsche!

Hello!

I got a very mediocre results for my first semester in NIE, below 3.5 out of 5. It is something that is way below my expectations. It felt worse when I thought that I had written down all the stuffs that I had memorized from the textbooks and notes. Unfortunately, the outcome is unexpected. I was clouded by the thoughts that I was inferior compared to many of my friends who achieve better results than me. After much contemplation and clearing of my thoughts, I am once again feeling positive and absolute of what's my ultimate aim studying in here and it's time to lower my expectations for my exams grades.It dawned upon me that these are the few reasons that have caused me to get this CGPA.

1. I'm the victim of the bell curve system. Bell curve system assigns grades to students based on their relative performance in comparison to classmates' performance. Deep down in my heart, I know that I can't be compared to students from China, students who have been constantly been exposed to Chinese related exams like classmates who are from NP Chinese Studies etc. Therefore, even if I have done really well, one or two marks difference with my classmates can just simply put me one grade down because of the bell curve system.

2. Chinese literature. I thought I can get an A or distinction yet it turned out to be B-. I'm someone who has a very strong memory. I can memorize a lot of things within one day. I thought I had finished my chinese literature paper splendidly. It shows to me that maybe the way of how I have answered is wrong. It made me recall of the days when I failed my history structural essay questions even though I had all my content in there but I failed badly because of the incorrect technique and way of writing the essay. I did not link my answer back to the question. I broke down at that point of time. It was until I was taught of the correct way to answer those questions then was I able to get A2 for my O's. During chinese literature class in NIE, I have no exposure to the exam questions compared to many of my fellow classmates who did tons of exams papers for their A levels or poly exams. Teacher only teaches us how to analyse the literature articles but not the way of answering the exam questions. Consequently, I can't learn from my mistakes as well because we can't retrieve our papers. So it feels like I'm kept in the dark forever. To think of it now, I feel that it's alright as long as I'm still able to appreciate chinese culture through reading and analysing from those literature articles that we have learnt in class.

3. Chinese is an art subject, not science. I comprehend that I have to subscribe chinese version of Reader Digest, 读者文摘 instead of my usual english ones after my annual subscription ends in next year June. I have just subscribed 联合早报 besides The Straits Time in this year August because I'm worried my chinese is just substandard. I have to tell myself this that the subject I'm taking now is chinese. It' an art subject, not science. I was thinking " I would have done way better if I took up P.E in the first place. I would just have to wait for another year for the next intake." However, whining about this now is just plain useless and we cannot judge ourselves assuming that we will do better on the other hand. If it's a science subject, just like optometry in my poly time, I just have to memorize/practise the type of questions that it will come out for the exams and fare well in it Arts subject exams like language papers are very ambiguous. You cannot prepare anything last minute beforehand and the amount of knowledge that you have in your mind is accumulated and it doesn't help if you study at the very last minute. Using only street sense of mandarin for the past 4 years has put me to disadvantage because I have forgotten most of the proverbs/idioms that I have learnt and used during my secondary school days.

I'm not particular of my results ever since I went into poly. That's why I'm feeling neutral this time round. From my worst GPA of 2.3 to best GPA of 3.85 in poly, from written exam papers to clinical attachment assessment, I have come to realise some things. Results are just a fraction of your academic life. The most important is still on how you do well in your future attachment/ work life. You can get very good results be a scholarship holder but if you can't handle well with your colleagues or your work, it will still be useless. Bell curve grading is something that Singapore local universities have adapted and it's something that I dislike at times. One of my teachers who has gone to an overseas university does not suffer from this kind of grading. As long as he gets that particular grade, he will deserve it. So for students here, even though they have very good grades, they will be put down by other classmates who have scored even better than them. This creates a 人吃人 society instead of a cooperative one. Everyone goes around comparing each other's results and some of them may even gloat secretly upon knowing that they score better than the others. This kind of system can sometimes really depreciate people if we do not have the correct mindset in life.

All these reasons shan't be an excuse for us. I will definitely still put in whatever I can.

No matter what, we have to tell ourselves this. We can still make a difference in our students' life as long as we teach and guide them wholeheartedly. Students won't go around asking for your exam grades in university to judge you. So why must you use that grade to judge yourself? My fellow friends in uni, It has already showed something of ourselves if we are able to get into university, to be able to get to this stage. :) 

I remembered I once said this during the MOE interview when they asked me which subject I was interested in. "It doesn't matter to me as long as I can teach and make a difference in their lives."

That's my ultimate aim.

What about all of you? :)

Hello!

It's great to have a wishlist in your mind on the things that you want to achieve in life. Whenever I find my progress in life is getting constant, I like to find new goals to reach. This makes me enjoy every parts and parcels of my life. I will not waste my time away doing things that I don't like. I don't ask for salary when doing stuffs that I like. Like mascots and teaching of wushu. Dad asked me yesterday " So how much do you earn as a fairy mascot?" I replied, " I never ask leh. My main objective is to have fun and see how it feels because I have never done a mascot which exposes my looks before."

I dislike seeing people counting down to end of their work or chores that they have to do it habitually. Live everyday as if it's the last day. If I realise myself that I have been constantly counting down to end of today or this week etc, I will have waste my time away just spending it with unfocused mind. You can always learn something even when doing things that you dislike to do. It's a matter of how you think. If you still find yourself unable to look forward to the things and continue to countdown to the end of it, I suggest you quit doing that. Live your life for yourself, not others.

To me, life is like fulfilling your dreams and inner desires. I find my life enriching when I'm able to work towards the things that I want to achieve, fulfilling it, then finding new goals and fulfilling it again. My last wish on earth is to die peacefully in sleep, something I cannot control of.

Wishes/ Desires that are fulfilled
- Got 250 and above for PSLE
- Got a keyboard
- Going for piano lessons
- Got l1R5 of 7 to go into my dream school, ACJC at that time but I chose SP in the end
- Went to Sentosa Dolphin Lagoon
- Having my own pet
- Have found my soulmate
- Got into university
- Did Aerial somersault successfully
- Performed in Power Rangers mascot

Wishes/ Desires that are not/unable to fulfill
- Have my own room
- Scuba Diving License (Theory classes have attended. Left with another confinement pool session with Baby again as he couldn't trap water for 10 mins the last time)
- Performed in theatre production, be it dance or wushu
- Have my own piano
- Piano Grading Exams
- Wushu coaching license
- Scuba Dive in an open sea, swimming with the dolphins! :)


Long life wishes/desires
- Go overseas yearly with Baby
- Overseas Community Work in once every 2 years (Last one was in 2010 to Laos for 14 days, Gift of Sight)

Some of my wishes and desires may change over time. Some of the stuffs that I have achieved in life, I have no intention at all of getting it in the first place, like a bonus. Like driving license, NYAA Gold award and medals in competitions etc. It just comes naturally without strong desires.

And that's the main reason of why I do not wish to have my own kids in the future. I have my goals in life to fulfill. Having kids will make me to be more selfish in my future choices compared to being selfish of just fulfilling my wishes/desires where I can teach and inspire others.

People in relationships are always selfish. We leave for the best to them and giving the second-hand choices to people whom we are not really close to. You can never say that you are not selfish in your relationship, be it kinship or friendship.

I need a soulmate because I need someone to confide and support me. That's being selfish too, right? You want people to be more romantic, listen to you, follow your order etc. Unless you are a saint, humans are all selfish creatures. But I'm able to give my all to him.

Coming to a common consensus with someone, respecting each other's goals in life, saying out how you feel even your darkest thoughts, understand how he or she feels, sacred union with him or her (or you can call it making love), and unless you engage yourself in threesome or go around flirting with others...

There's only one person in my life. <3

Hello!

Exams are over. Results will be out in 2 weeks time. Having a rather positive feeling towards my exams results.

Been trying to juggle the time with my revision for exams and training for 集体剑. Sometimes I feel like breaking down especially moments when my period was coming at that point of time. Clearing distracting thoughts aside and staying focus during trainings/ muggings really help but when put aside these tasks with nothing left to do, stressful thoughts will take over and haunt me. Well, I've never been good in handling sad emotions anyway which is weird because I handle my anger emotions really well. Deep breathing techniques and forcing myself to think of other positive things will only control my emotions temporarily for 5 mins? Ultimately, crying out is still the only way to stop myself for feeling so sad in a long run.

2011 Xin Ying International Traditional Wushu and Taiji Exchange Competition at Hong Wen Pri Sch

I asked my parents not to come as it was very far! At Boon Keng! 
Me: Why do both of you still want to come?
Dad: You keep asking us to come.
Me: Where got lor! I ask mummy to tell you not to come liao! Later next day you are tired when working lehhh!!!
Mum: Don't listen to him bullshit. He keeps saying he wants to come and support you.
Dad: *secretly smiling*

<3


Huiying got 1st in her 竞赛剑 while I got 2nd in my 双剑.Actually I wasn't that happy with my results because I know that I'm not putting my best with my fingers still injured. Phobia.


Double Sword Routine


We got Gold in 集体剑.  Everyone's efforts paid off!!! :) 
Thanks to Alicia who helped me to tie my hair when my fingers were injured and consoled me when I was crying.
Thanks to Han Song who drove me to TPY CC/ back home before and after training.
Thanks to Clement who made me feel that I'm not alone mugging for exams in school.
Thanks to HuiYing for lending Xiaosuhui's double swords to me and switching our routines at the very last min.
Thanks to Leslie for putting in efforts to choreograph this routine and leading the team.
Thanks to Li Yan for listening to my complains and stories because you were always the first to reach for training.
Lastly, thanks to myself, continue to push on even though my fingers were injured, exams were around the corner, when Yikeng is not beside me and I'm still trying to adapt to this new lifestyle without him constantly beside me.


Baby came down to support me for 1 hour before going back home to prepare for book in though it's very troublesome. Thanks so much Baby! <3


Zijing came to my house while I was mugging as she said she was too boring at home. -.- We went to JP New York for dinner after that.


Helped out for 2 days at the 18th Asia Pacific Optometry Congress, Alcon's booth. I think this guy had a crush on me. :/ Xiang Hua won the Ipad 2 lucky draw from my booth!


SAY HI TO PRETTY MIU MIU!


Class gathering at Ssikkek BBQ and finally a meet up with Len, Jiamin and Linyan!!!


Every weekend bookout is like a celebration for us. Marche! For the 2nd time! Look at the tone difference of our faces. HAHA!


I learnt this hairstyle from bubzbeauty and took 2 hours making up and hairstyling. Felt so tired after that that I was quite fed up when I was not even out of my house yet! How do those girls who always put makeup before stepping out of house survive!!!??? Practice makes perfect..........

After Tiramisu cooking class at Taman Jurong CC, I attended another Festive Christmas Cooking Classes and learnt another 3 to 4 more dishes. YUMS!

Hello!

Wednesday is my chinese literature exam but I have no mood for studying now. Rather than lying on bed and complaining, let me write down and reminisce the things that I have done for the past 1 month.

My BA Chinese Class!!! A bunch of fun loving classmates. We had plaits theme, school uniforms theme, blazers theme etc.


My Educational Psychology Groupmates! Siew Ling, Grace, Jia Qi, me and Xiao Qi!


CLEAR Club Investiture. Passing down ceremony. I am now the Vice-President of Clear Club.


Clear Club Teambonding Retreat Day. We went to Decoders Cafe in the afternoon then Potluck at Jurong Industrial Park with the seniors.


All of us at Decoders Cafe.


Mid-Autumn Festival Celebration 2011!


My first performance in school, Mid Autumn.

This year Invitational Wushu Championship/ IVP 2011 is held at Ngee Ann Polytechnic. The only difference as compared to the previous years was that my parents came down to support me this time round. However, I was having first day of my menses. Very very bad cramps. Vomitted after my eagle claw routine. Couldn't stand straight. Forced myself for the double straightsword routine. Tassels were tangled and I could not pull it out. Only did 5 secs of my double straightsword routine. Disappointed with myself. Teared. Dad hugged me and said "Even God cares about you and that's why he doesnt want you to push yourself further." 

Nevertheless, I was glad that I could push my body to its limits and got a Gold in my Eagle Claw Routine.

1st: SP's presidents. 2nd: My beloved coaches. ^ ^




Thanks to Ah Zhao and Wayne for all these wonderful photos!


My mental support <3


With SP and NTU wushu.


For NTU magazine photo shoot.


3 days wushu enrichment course at Opera Estate Primary School. First time taught wushu in a classroom settings. Taught them wubuquan sparring and some movements in Eagle Claw.


Performed at Singapore Writers' Festival 2011


Taught those students from Tanglin Trust for around 1 month. And we were invited for their production and performed together with them. I feel so proud of myself when I saw them execute the routines and movements that I taught them for the past 1 month. :D


Performed for 2 days with Eugene, Wenda, Brandon and Cynthia.


NTU Digital Media Presentation. After helping out in their mocap, they invited me for the presentation. Brilliant! First time witnessed using technology to edit videos. They edited my face, costume, movements and put together in a video. Rmb my previous post on this, I was only wearing a black elastic suit with motions caps pasted on my body. Had lunch treated by the professor at Jurong Point Kuishinbo with the other staffs.


Dearest Baby has finally enlisted! Wrote 14 letters for him to read everyday during first 2 weeks of BMT.


BOTAK! Bought a hat for him and myself so that we will wear together when we go out!


Went to have Japanese Buffet Kiseiki at the Heeren with Dennis and Serene! YUMMMMS!!!


With baby's cousins and brother at his niece's 1st year old birthday party! Went to sentosa during Halloween Festival with Xin Ni, Xin Hui, Janice, Wendi and Yu Qiu.


National Youth Achievement Gold Award Ceremony!




Was there with Abigail who was there to receive the award too. My parents and baby came to witness!


Poly 50 run! Last time running that track in SP! This year's poly 50 was good because there was free food. heees! Candy floss, nachos, popcorns, ice kachang, JC donuts etc!


Conducted a short Q and A session during Freshlook Cosmetic Workshop and helped out at Ciba Vision's booth at Singapore Opticianry Congress 2011.  

There are some more stuffs like Tiramisu Cooking Class etc which I have no time to write the recipes out here. Off for dinner!